Even more challenging, rather than just static or not moving in the direction you intend, matters can almost seem to draw back, to take steps backwards, to recede.
Fear not, that is the process. There are times we have to empty, more than we'd like, in order to be fulfillled. There are times we must let go of whatever we are so tightly gripping onto, in order to open our hands to receive what we've been so desperately waiting for. And, in any trajectory, there is a gentle pull before the release.
Have you felt this - ever felt stammered, unable to move forward and then on top of it, as if the energy is moving backwards? To be frank, I've been experiencing a lot during this summer of transition, and just when the days are hottest and longest, I felt like things had languished. Like I was simply going nowhere, and out of momentum.
Energy is interesting - I try to pay attention to how I handle mine, and where I feel the effects from others. I was started to feel dragged down, just tired and uninspired. Luckily, I had enough to do to keep me busy and I've been working on a few things. I had planned in the Spring that I would attend the Wanderlust Festivals, so knowing that good time and great tribe, I had something to look forward to, so I soldiered on.
And now, that time at the festival, with my tribe and my teacher, seems to have been the moment when that 'arrow that had been nocked and pulled so firmly backwards' was held in momentary stasis - like time out of time. In that clear space, I was able to just drop in and serve, to spend real time with real people and to play.
Since I've been back, the moment is over, but that means the arrow has flown. I've had great news from all over, I've been in contact with so many great new friends, I'm collaborating on an excellent SEVA event - GaneshFest, and I've got lots of fun teaching and service plans coming up.
I'm also delving into just a few more things, one of which should come to fruition this week. So, it's a mighty time, and I'm flying and I'm trying to stay mindful yet move with the energy. Wanted to share this in hopes that you might see that time where it just doesn't seem to be working as the 'draw back' before your great and true and valiant flight!
Give thanks and praise!