Got a lot of positive support - thanks and praise. It is priceless and I thank you. I hope I've earned the care and respect I'm being afforded, and I hope to be back with y'all in the practice quite soon.
But first, a little of my own cleanup. Part of the reason for my transition from what I was doing to what I want to do was to follow my truth, not my ego, not my desire for what I believed would happen, but rather for what I can create myself. I'm happy with that, I'm proud of being truthful enough with myself to make positive change.
And, making that change and getting the support of others ennobles me and helps me feel empowered to pursue those truths - to see what will develop.
However, even positive attributes like Truth can be mis-used and abused. With almost every emotion, action, or even physical item we encounter, we can choose to use them correctly or incorrectly - as a tool or a weapon.
I was too brutally honest, to proud of my honesty. I used honesty and truth to hurt others and for that I admit my failings. The outcome doesn't bother me, that was natural. But, I'm not an 'ends' person, I like to live in the 'means', so to coin a phrase, my means were mean.
Kinda shitty, I'll own it and the detriment it caused. I'm not saying what I said isn't true, it just probably didn't need to be said. A good lesson. So, not a saint, and yes a sinner, and just like many of you, making my way through the world.
I'm right where I need to be. I will apologize for using facts to hurt others, I will sit in study of myself and get those triggers identified, so I can use truth to support and uplift. It's not my role to be righteous, but rather to move on and just get right with me.
Not trying to be cryptic, I'm happy to share in person more if this intrigues you, but this is not about the 'story' or the 'drama', but rather, the 'author' and what he has learned.
Thanks and praise, for letting me learn and live. Apologies if my use of the truth hurt any of you all. Let's move on and co-create a new way of relating that isn't so much about proving who is right, but lifting the whole community.