I'm really feeling the transition from 'what I know' to the unknown today - I think I almost had an anxiety attack, but luckily, I work in the body, with the body and through the body, and I just had to breath into it, experience it, identify it and release it.
THIS IS WHY WE DO ASANA PRACTICE - SO WE CAN USE THOSE SKILLS IN OUR LIFE!
So thankful to have these tools and skills; immensely grateful to move to a space where that will be my main focus, not my 'nice spot in the day', but my work.
In truthful retrospect, I wasn't always the best manager I could be or the nicest person to work for - I'm pretty clear I wasn't a despot or a tyrant, but I could've stayed more principle-centered and been more compassionate. I wasn't; I noticed, I worked to improve and then through discernment, I decided not to put myself in the position of directing other people's work - except, of course, when that work is asana and the student comes for that purpose.
It is very liberating to put that behind me - but in doing so, I will take account for my actions and behaviors. If I offended or diminished you, I apologize - please let me know if there is some clean-up to be done. And, to be clear, since a minority of this community ascribed blame that was not mine on me, I offer this to people I was or am in direct relationship with, not anyone who was ever pissed at the place I work. No flap-jackin', that's not my shit!
My goal is to connect, to build alliances and support networks, to unite and to spread the benefit of asana practice as far and wide as my peers can handle!
But first, my timing has worked out really well. I'll be leaving the country for a week off, starting Saturday. So, catch me if you can, I'll be in der Nederlanden, and that is why my heart is still orange!!
Tot ziens! Dank en lof geven!