I was there to teach a Chakra Meditation class and a fun and rocking Flow class, and they were both really well received. I'm pretty comfortable in each of those areas, and I've been on this kick recently to examine those levels of comfort. Actually, to even get into finding ways to move with intention into the discomfort - that's where the good stuff happens.
I feel like I'm ready to be uncomfortable and gain some new perspectives, maybe reach some new potential, or even loose a little more of some of that baggage we can all drag. So, for each of the two classes, I reached a little deeper, and rather than simply going to the place of comfort, I added in some new perspective, incorporated some feelings and some strong intentional energetics, and moved both of these classes into a more ecstatic and devotional state. Towards a state of intentional and purposeful sensuality and intimacy - a Bhakti bhava.
I'd love to rap on and on about Bhakti and the Bhavas here (and I will, soon), but suffice it to say, rather than simple 'devotion', we're looking for expressions of devotion that encompass being in relationship. There are many levels of Bhakti that are relational, the one I'm focusing on is the classic Radha and Krishna expression.
For months now within me, there's been an upwelling of this energetic. I've been consumed with thinking about the both most mundane and the most ethereal levels of sensuality - to live fully with our senses engaged - and intimacy - to be 'not afraid', to be vulnerable - and how each of those are incredible expressions of love.
The more sensually and intimately I can see, hear, feel, taste and experience the simple and mundane moments as, the more easily I can begin to manifest the sacred in every instance, action, deed, being and thing. As someone asked me this weekend, "where isn't god?".
This has been in my consciousness for a while, I've been seeking a discernment, and a level of understanding, so I can be intentional, and not 'sensational'; and so that I can inspire a transformation or conversation, rather than being a trigger. It's a very interesting space, and I think I'm just uncomfortable enough now to be thoughtful about it. I hope and will endeavor.
It's just this easy - I want to see the Divine as the Beloved, and I want to be in a Love with the Divine. I know what love, being in love and being a lover are, so I can find this joy and this space with the entirety of creation, and perhaps in doing so, taste a little of the Rasa and be stained by the Grace.
"The transcendental goddess Srimati Radharani is the direct counterpart of Lord Sri Krishna. She is the central figure for all the goddesses of fortune. She possesses all attractiveness to attract the all-attractive Personality of Godhead. She is the primeval internal potency of the Lord."
Brihad-gautamiya-tantra
"Among all persons, it is Sri Radha in whose company Lord Madhava is especially glorious, as She is especially glorious in His."
Rig-parisishta